Friday, May 05, 2006

My feelings on the subject

So, I am gonna be a Dad. Most people that know me know that this is the one aspect of marriage that scares the snot out of me. To be fully responsible for a small life that is totally dependent on you for all of it's needs is an awesome responsibility. I still have yet to wrap my brain around this fact. As Sarah's belly grows so does my angst at the thought of raising this child. I have heard a number of people ask others "Why would you bring this child into this awful world?" While to the unsaved world this may be a legitimate question, those of us who have Christ as our savior know that we do this to honor Him and his Father. What better way to honor both than to produce a child that is in the image of God. It also allows us to reflect that Christ himself was once a baby that was born to complete an important task. We are all born to complete an important task. Our task is not as great as Christ's but it is important none the less.

As I remember back to helping Shawn Sheppard with the J?H ministry hear at the church I remember him telling the kids that for him fatherhood gives him such a better understanding of God's love for us. The love that Shawn has for his boys is not able to be measured. Same with the love God has for us. This I think helps us understand how hard it must have been to let Christ go. Knowing that he would die, suffer hell, pain, misery, and loneliness he still let him go. I don't know that I could have done the same if my child were the one chosen but thankfully God made the choice for us. I know I'm al little afraid. I also know that if I keep my focus God will allow me to do the best I can through Him. It makes it a little easier to deal with but the but the fact of the matter remains, this child is my responsibility and I will be held accountable for how this child is raised. Man, what a day!


kludge said...

Congrats! It's a big deal, and a nice one two.I love being "Dad."

To help with the fears, keep in mind, most peoples earliest memories are not before 3 or4. This gives you a nice margin for error.

Ando said...

Wait a minute, who is this? I thought this was Sarah's blog.

Don't worry, you'll do great. I mean, really, you've been Pops Kuhner for years.