Lately I have been thinking about my priorities in life. What I want to make time for and what I need to let go. I keep dwelling on what things are important to me. There are so many things in life that I want to do. I know I can't do everything and I don't really want to. I just feel pulled in so many directions right now and don't want to just give a little bit to everything and do nothing well. I have work life, church life, family life and friendships to balance.
For quite awhile I feel as though I am not really doing any of them well. Where ever I am I want to give 100%. When I can't do that, it makes me feel like I am floundering. I am trying to back up and reevaluate my life through God's eyes. His are the only ones that matter. I don't want to get to the end of my life and have Him say, "You tried really hard to do a lot of things, but none of it matters. You didn't serve me." I want to serve Him here and now. If I don't make time to do that, if I don't prioritize my time to do what honors Him, I won't ever accomplish what God wants me to do.
So, what are my priorities in life? What things do I really want to do? I want to try to find the things that I need to cut back on, things that aren't that important in the long run. These things weigh me down. Then I need to decide what is really important and make it the main focus of my life.
I am a child of God. He has saved me and rescued me from a life of meaninglessness. I know that I am placed here to serve Him, to praise and worship Him, and to share His love with others. I want to make an impact for Christ here and now.
I want to:
*Make time every day to be in the Word of God
*Spend time teaching my girls the truths of God and reading the Bible to them
*Collect cereal boxes for those in Haiti
*Supporting missions and missionaries
*Praying for those in need
*Building relationships with those around me
*Manna house: Do more photo shoots, pamper parties, raise money to provide things that will bless these dear ladies.
I am a wife and a mommy. My inmost circle is my husband and my two daughters. God has given them to me and I absolutely love them. I need to make sure that I am building relationships with them and growing closer each day to them.
I want to:
*Go on date nights with my sweet husband
*Read to my children every day
*Take time to play with my kids-go to the park, the library and on walks with them
*Make delicious and healthy food for them
*Keep a clean and organized home where they can feel safe and welcome
*Go camping
*Tell them every day how much I love them and show them in little ways all throughout the day
I want to build my relationships with my friends and family. I feel that this area suffers the most. Life gets too busy and all of a sudden I realize that I haven't really spent time with the people that are the closest to me. I don't want to be too busy to fellowship with those I love.
I want to:
*Have a game night once a month with my side of the family and one with Chris' side of the family.
*Plan fun outings where a bunch of our friends can get together and do life.
- Bubble party at the park: Bring picnic lunches and all our bubble stuff and just have fun
- Go to the beach with friends or family.
-Build picnic tables with any that want to.
- Have more bonfires in our backyard. Hang out and roast smore's.
-Have more BBQ's with friends.
I am also a nurse. I am currently a Staff Nurse III. This brings more responsibility and more of a time commitment to my job. I have an extra meeting once a month to attend and I can rarely do anything extra that they ask. I just don't have time to do it. I am supposed to be heading up a mock code team. This has fallen apart simply because I don't have the time to commit to it. Plus meeting are always on a day that I am sleeping because I have worked the night before. I am on our partnership council. I love it, but meeting are on days where I work. I get less sleep and it is conflicting with Chris' radio station. I have to ask someone to babysit or take my children to the meeting. I love my work and totally enjoy it. I don't love feeling that I want or should be doing more and just don't have the time to do it. I am seriously considering stepping down from being a Staff Nurse III. I will still work extremely hard to excell as a nurse whether it is taking care of my dear little treasures or being charge nurse and running to deliveries. I will still be a transport nurse and learn how to take care of babies that need body cooling to save their precious brains. I am just really considering not taking so much time out of my life to focus on extra things at work. No decisions have been made, but I am praying about what I need to do.
I love figuring out stuff as I am writing. Journaling always does that. Now, on to focus on all that is truely important and let go of all the other stuff.
Sarah,
ReplyDeleteI hear ya! Balancing everything is so hard. I struggle with the same thing. I will pray for you that God helps you find balance and do the things that are most important. We can't do everything. I think praying for focus and wisdom is where to start. I will be praying for you!